One of the goals for my residency was to work on a piece that was larger than anything I'd ever made before. I don't have a lot of room in our apartment to work large, so I wanted to take advantage of this opportunity. The whole process of creating such a large piece was really difficult since I've primarily been painting watercolour on small 9x12 sheets of paper each morning. 1/4 of the way into the painting, I really hated it. I moped around the house and procrastinated and did some other small paintings in the mean time. It looked so awful and I didn't know how to bring it back. But I discovered the key when that happens is to just mix up a boatload of paint and go to it. I knew if I had paint ready I wouldn't want to waste it and I just attacked the canvas, chasing the fear away. I was psyching myself out by worrying so much about it instead of just enjoying myself so this helped me to stop being so precious and enjoy myself.
I would say fear is the biggest struggle I face in creating my work and tackling something this large helped me dispel a lot of it. Hope you enjoy seeing it come to life in this short video!
This painting was made in several sessions a day over the course of 5 days.